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Name: Will
Country: United States
Metro: Omaha
Gender: Male


Interests: Metal. Hardcore. Metalcore. indie. screamo. knives. tattoos, old and new. I am first and foremost a follower of Jesus. I love music. I love people. I am a Conservative. I am a Charismatic. I am Interdenominational and Nondenominational simultaneously. Here are some of my newly re-kindled interests: I LOVE/HAVE GREAT INTEREST IN: 1) History. 2) War history. 3) Reading. 4) The great human struggle. 5)Trying to Please the Holy Triune GOD versus trying to please MYSELF. 6) Holy Love & Holy Fear... Simultaneously 7) Our Terrifying, Glorious, Loving, Just, Infallible Three-in-One: the Maker (God the Father), the Shaker (God the Holy Spirit), and the Sin-Taker (God the Son). 8) spiritual warfare. 9) Art. 10) tattoos. Oooooh, especially amazing custom pieces. 11) the Bible. 12) Firearms. especially handguns and Rifles. 13) poiltics. mmmm... stupid antics that they often are.
Expertise: Throwin' down, getting tattoos, painting, drawing, Bible, smelling nice, black t-shirts, singing, Jesus, going to PIT & Trinity. Teaching others about having a christian worldview. shooting targets moving or stationary at long distances. spending time with my beautiful wife. video games, making music.
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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

the game is over.

Atlantic, its been fun.
I will be here for anywhere from 6-7 weeks to 8 months.
lets make it count



I continue to hum Jesus Loves Me all week just to make it.


Wednesday, June 04, 2008

It never ends... it never ends... it never ends...

it never ends... it never ends.

 

(when does it end?)

it never ends...


Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I am at work at my church and I am doing some Research & Development for some of the issues in emerging in the culture, coming up in my synod, and my church, and what I should do to understand those issues better, and what to teach my Youth, like how to serve others and stand up for Jesus more than standing up for "tolerance".

I desire to teach my Youth, with whom God has given me responsibilty and has given me charge over, to have a personal Relationship with God through belief in Jesus Christ, to think critically and to develop a Biblical Worldview that includes a sound Biblical theology, a process of sanctification from the Holy Spirit.  I desire to teach them about Redemption, Hope, Peace, Assurance, and Love from God and toward others... Rather than those "social issues" that seem to preoccupy our rather "Bible devoid" churches, synod offices, and council leadership bodies of today...

I read a couple magazine articles... blah. nothing worthwhile.  I  looked through some websites... some relevant, mostly relative and worthless.

THEN I CHECKED YOUTUBE and typed in "Bishop Hanson" and "Goals" and "ELCA" ...  YAHTZEE! I found something worthwhile. 

I watched a YouTube video featuring the head bishop, Bishop Mark Hanson of the ELCA (ELCA means EVANGELICAL LUTHERAN CHURCH in AMERICA). In the video, Bishop Hanson is using a bunch of politically correct jargon about "people of faith", "world in crisis", and about "Millennium Development Goals" and "Social Justice"... some of it talked about issues regarding "world issues", "social justice" and "government"...

I heard a lot of "P.C.", not a lot of "J.C." (Jesus Christ).

In the video, I heard almost nothing about living a life of action, inspired to move and live by gratitude for what God has done for you and inspired to action by Scripture, addressing world issues because you love God and understand that He has things for you to do...

I heard almost nothing about a biblical view about our broken world, or about discipleship, or about a Biblical Worldview. Almost nothing stated in the video in any way resembled those things that Jesus, and later Paul, so many times told us as believers to do, to repent, follow, define, worship and live in. Read Matthew or the Gospel of John, or even Colossians or 2 Timothy, see first hand what I am talking about. 

In the video, I saw a lot of "Social Gospel" and "Emancipation Gospel" and "Global crisis/Ecology" stuff.  I agreed with a few small things Bishop Hanson said, but overall I thought it lacked direction, it lacked real foundation and "a spine". World Vision and Food For The Poor have "spines", foundations in Truth... and they get the mission work DONE. We as Christians should care about the world and those hurting inside of it. We should do things in the culture, we should attack world hunger, we should move toward helping disaster relief, we should care about HIV/AIDS and the people it effects, we should seek to use the evironment that God has given us as good stewards, not raping the natural resources we have been given... BUT because we love God and respect the things He would have us do. 

Then was this comment listed under the Video:

"This is the man leading the ELCA down the path to Hell. He has caused the church to accept homosexuality... welcome to the slippery slope!"

WHOA! Where did this come from?  IF ANYONE is leading the any church down the path to Hell, its us who refuse to know our Bibles and challenge our leaders with love & humility.

While I agree that the many denominations have virtually walked away from Scripture on many issues, pushed for the tolerance of homosexuality, for gay marriage rights, and have torn down some classic family values (aka Conservative Christian values) and have pushed a few other agendas, the majority of the ELCA has not "accepted homosexuality".

Most of the leadership has, some hasn't. But let it be known that MOST congregates (people belonging to a congregation or church) within the ELCA have not accepted homosexuality, nor do they necessarily support homosexual marriage, nor gay/lesbian/bisexual/trans-gendered pastoral ordination... In fact many within the ELCA believe that we should allow those individuals who consider themselves as bisexuals & homosexuals into our churches and we should love them and treat them with respect, but many ELCA congregates believe that we should also treat all sexual sin and sexual expression outside of marriage of one man & one woman, including all homosexuality, as sin, as is listed in the Bible.

Sarcasm: Some of the ELCA leadership, including the the baby-boomers and ex-hippies, say "But those are the geriatrics, the grand-parents, the people who fought the Nazi's and communists, the greatest generation to ever live. What could they possibly know?"

Sad thing, that some of the "loud ones" within the mostly silent conservative moral majority (including some of those "grandmas and grandpas") make homosexuality out to be a "much worse sin" that the other sins & perversion in the their own lives...

So then, the rest of the much-less-vocal moral conservatives within ELCA congregations often stay silent when it comes to sin because they don't want to be labeled as hypocrites, as close-minded, or as bigots... and sometimes when they do stand up against sin issues and against the liberal homosexuality agendas, they get a tongue-lashing from the leadership within their own church, their synods, their friends... people they should be able to trust.

Sometimes these concerned, conservative followers of Jesus even get "pushed out" of their synods or church congregations by those who consider themselves "open-minded", the "very vocal" liberal minority within congregations. So, in essence, those loud "squeaky wheels" pushing the pro-homosexuality, pro-relativism, pro-humanist, pro-universalism, pro-"diversity" people "get the grease" and have their way.

AND it hasn't just been "politicians" within the church, like Bishop Hanson, its been a conglomerate of "tolerant", liberal, "progressive", bishops & pastors who have been indoctrinating people who are becoming new ELCA pastors and new ELCA congregates.  Bishop Hanson just happens to be allowing these heresies within the denomination. We who attend, are members of, or who work for the ELCA (and Christians wordwide) should pray for Bishop Hanson, that God Almighty would convict and change his heart on these major issues.  We shouldn't waste so much time, effort, energy, and money on "blaming him".

The Catholic church in the 1400's did the same thing. They encouraged the average individual to not read the Bible (because they "wouldn't understand it"), not to be actively involved in relationship with their God, to not ever challenge their priests on any issues. They pushed people around, manipulated whole villages of people, and they allowed the leadership of individual churches to teach whatever they wanted and to do whatever they wanted "in the name of God", as long as the church heirarchy retained power over people. That's what led to the deep corruption within the Roman Catholic Church at that time (believe it or not, its much better today), and that's what led Brother Martin, a catholic monk, AKA Martin Luther, to read the Scriptures deeply for himself and post up his "95 Thesis", which could have been named 95 PROBLEMS IN THE CHURCH & IDEAS FOR BIBLICAL SOLUTIONS for the Church. He valiantly took the issues back to Scripture for scrutiny... he publicly posted and held the Church of that time to standards found in the Word, that which they claimed to teach from.

In his  righteous "freaking out" on the leadership of the church as he did, Luther was eventually moved by the spirt of God to translate the Bible into 4 or 5 languages so that the common man, not only the "priesthood" and elect laity, could read the Word of God and could grow in faith and deeper relationship with Christ. How many of us will be willing to read the Word, become convicted of wrong-doing within our own lives, our church bodies & denominations, and then "righteously freak out" in love and humility, on those in leadership to address the problems.

I feel that we should be blaming ourselves, not Bishop Hanson, because we as Followers of Christ have not been not fighting the cultural tide; fighting the tide with righteousness, hope, love, purity, humility, convictions, honesty, & fervor... these are the things change the world. We should blame ourselves for not getting involved in the workings of the Church worldwide (regardless of the denomination) and how it interacts with the rest of the world way sooner.

By only speaking up now, we've allowed others over the last decade plus to "elect into office" leadership people who we sometimes obviously don't agree with on social and theological issues... and we should blame ourselves for not knowing the Bible better and for not discerning these cultural issues and these elected leaders' views, when they began over 15 plus years ago. Sadly, I see church split coming to many of the mainline denominations over the next decade. The winnowing fork is here, Christ will seperate the Wheat from the Chaff. 

We should also blame ourselves for us not lovingly educating others within our church bodies & assemblies to not "vote-in" those individuals who we don't see living Biblical lives and whose own "worldviews", social, moral, spiritual, or otherwise, don't align with our own.  In short, one is only repsonsible for ones own actions or inaction.

I personally feel called by God to be teaching "Conservative Theology" and "Authenticity". I feel that I am to be very transparent with my Youth, and that I am called to be teaching Youth and parents to be the same people inside and outside of the church building, because ultimately you can't hide anything from God, and that willful hypocrisy degrades character.  In this crazy, messed-up world character, integrity, and who(se) you are when you stand before God is really all you've got.

My wife and I are not perfect, we sin, we mess up (big time)... but we also feel by God called to live in such a way that we are "SOLD OUT" only to God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit, the three-in-one; not to the culture, not to the ideologies of the social elite, nor to the church's politics.

I find myself to be a "Charismatic, Interdenominational, Holy-Spirit filled, Fundamentalist, Bible-Believing, Follower of Jesus Christ" (like Luther would have been, after all, he didn't want denominations, sin, or politics in the church at all).  These titles get me into trouble. I don't care. I still love philosophy, sociology, anthropology, history, the sciences, the arts, music & expression, people, and cultures. I am still open-minded and loving towards people, yet close-minded toward bad ideas and sin... just like I see Jesus was, according to Scripture.

I am called by God, as of this time, to work within the ELCA and raise up a new generation, one that loves Jesus and is more "LUTHER" (questioning the church leadership on moral and biblical issues, and encouraging BIBLE-based theology and Spirit-filled living over authoritarianism, politics, and perversion) and less "Lutheran" (spineless, massively politically correct, diversity & tradition-led, and grossly tolerant of sin).

I intend to follow my calling from God and by His lead, one church body, one Youth Group at a time. It may get me fired. I don't know. And honestly, if I lose my Youth ministry for righteosly attempting to do the work that God has laid before me, so be it.

Lets focus on how we as individuals can follow our Lord Jesus Christ, showing, living, & learning sound theology and love, and unity for those who truly follow Christ, within the BIBLICAL VIEWS of SIN, and of RIGHTEOUSNESS, and what a follower of God lives like, rather than what our weakening mainline churches sometimes teach, which is often politically correct, tolerance-driven dribble.

Intense LOVE instead of weak "tolerance". CONVICTIONS instead of "moral ambiguity" & "moral tolerance". PASSION FOR FOLLOWING GOD first and foremost. PEACE & UNITY within the Body of those who truly believe in & follow Jesus, bearing one another's burdens. COMPASSION for a world of those individuals and families who are hurting. COMPASSION for those who are dealing with addiction, temptation, sexual sin, and other sin issues. COMPASSION toward those who don't understand what following God is about. Yet JUDGEMENT against sin & sin lifestyles, not people, not "sinners", of which I am one.

Luther once said:  "Sola Scriptura. Sola Cristo. Sola Gratia." roughly translated: "ONLY SCRIPTURE, ONLY CHRIST, ONLY GRACE."

Only through Scripture can we see God. Only by Christ are we redeemed. Only through Grace are we saved.

AMEN to that.


Feel free to think, get angry, comment, dissect, argue, laugh, point, quibble, deduce, disagree with, and label me now. GO!


Saturday, December 22, 2007

HOMELESSNESS vs. COMMERCIALISM

Today, after a frickin' terrible day at the church office, my amazing wife Cindy and I took 4 youth to Council Bluffs to assist in feeding the homeless and deeply impoverished.

we took 2 freshman and 2 seniors... 2 of the youth come from "upper-middle-class affluence" and two come from "the working-class".

WE ALL WORKED HARD, WE ATE WITH THE OTHER WORKERS AT THE KITCHEN AND WITH THOSE WE WERE SERVING. WE ALL HAD OUR EYES AND HEARTS OPENED TO TRUE POVERTY.  we all felt something deep inside of us move, as God Himself pushed us farther toward humility and thankfulness for the things that we take for granted... i was amazed to see the Love of God freely pour out of these four youth toward these, the ones that most of society calls the "unlovely" and "unlovable".

THEN...
we went to westroads mall.  Cindy and I took advantage of the clearance racks. Ben and Claire needed clothes, so they took advantage of them too...  my other 2 Youth (the crazy freshmen) were amazing, well-behaved, and quite light-hearted and were acting all ridiculous like 14-15 year old boys do...

as we left, we rode in the van to Caffeine Dreams, talking about the two extremes of culture we were in that night...
we talked about the differences and similarities between the two groups within the culture... some of the things the kids said were deeply uplifting & inspirational, while some words were so honest that the words broke your heart due to their extreme weight.

What we figured out is that both groups are suffering... both groups have individuals who desperately need God's love and Hope... both groups have put there hope in passing things and are in pain, in one way or another. poison is poison, consequences are consequences, no matter the form that they take.

but the thing that was the hardest for me to hear all night, was something God had convicted me of earlier in the mall, and He then had me share it with the Youth:

God loves the people in the mall who drop $200 in one store (of a multi-store mall trip), the same way that He loves the ones in the Food Hall who have NOTHING...  and that both groups and every individual we see deserve the love, value, hope, grace, and peace found in God only through Christ... and that God wants us to see each of them with Christ's heart and Christ's eyes...

whoa.

I cannot type anymore except for the following quote:

"We do not show love and service to the suffering as though they were Christ... we give, serve, & love because [in their suffering] they ARE CHRIST..."

-- Mother Theresa, when asked about her missions in the streets of India

-Will.


Tuesday, October 16, 2007

I MEAN NONE OF THIS AS A PERSONAL ATTACK... JUST HOW I AM FEELING.


one confession:

I need some "God time" too.  Yes, I am a "Pastor" or a "Youth Minister", but not at PIT. 

At PIT on Mondays...  I love to love on my friends... and I will "PASTOR" my wife and my YOUTH that i bring with me... after all, that is my calling.  But friends, please let me worship. let me release to my God that which He deserves.

Friends, please understand that i want to give each of you all the time and attention that you deserve when i talk to you, and i simply cannot help out / talk with to 8-10 different people at once.  Cindy and I LOVE your friendship. I just cannot counsel you all when i need counseling too...  

please do not be offended if i do not take the time to counsel you... while at PIT, its not my job, they have pastoral ministry people there for that. I am not a Pastor while I am at PIT, I am just part of PIT.  I have no special role there, except maybe continuing to love people in a "relational ministry".  I have no counseling/pastoral authority there. 

I would love to talk to you all over the phone some other time during the rest of the week, or some other time that we set up together either over hot coffee, a cold beer, or even dinner.  I would love to talk at OC after PIT,

but please let me have "FELLOWSHIP TIME", "WORSHIP TIME", and "PERSONAL GOD TIME" while I am there.   I do not always get that needed fellowship in ATLANTIC, and i need to get fed too. if you need prayer, let the PIT body and/or those within leadership do that for you.  Please do not pull me away from the body, pulling me away from what God is doing in the group.

I often feel as though I am in over my head in my Youth Ministry Job... I am about to make another confession.

here goes...

When it comes to others, I GIVE, I GIVE, I GIVE, I GIVE, I GIVE, and then I GIVE some more...

I give so much sometimes that I feel like a jerk if I feel the need to "take" a little bit because its not "MY USUAL".

(and this is the confession part)

I've been so busy lately and been dealing with so many people that found myself last friday, while on Youth Ministry errands in downtown ATLANTIC, walking with my iPod off but with my iPod's earbuds in my ears so that it looked like i was listening to music and couldn't hear people... that way i could wave & keep walking without people bothering me... because according to them, i couldn't "hear them"... i know, a crappy thing to do.

I loved hanging out with other adults at the Boo Box & D-stop on friday night, but even it turned into "Youth Ministry" at about 12:45AM (technically saturday morning) until about 2:15AM. long story. 

Saturday was relational ministry time with Ben, Steve, and Nathan M... awesome doods.  and i saw 5 people from my college days while I was in omaha. went to little mexico. thrifting. amazing show that night with skypiper, o lovelle, bradley hathaway, and (although i couldn't  stay for him) Tim wildsmith...  long day.

Sunday was a work day again... on very little sleep... again.  Sunday School. childrens message, confession/forgiveness, playing djembe, scripture reading... leading others in worship.

I found myself sitting playing Djembe after church on Sunday longer than usual because i needed to give something to God... and to avoid the people... because i have been giving to all of them so much lately that i am slightly empty some days.

then Binger's Surprise B-DAY party at B.W.W. on 76th and Dodge. Sunday was another long day.

SO, on Sunday night "I took".  i took some time away from sleep and my wife, some time to read a book and play video games until 4AM monday morning, slept in until almost 1 on Monday.  then on Monday i took time to fix the cable/phone/internet at our house (partly so my wife could enjoy it today, her "day off") and then took the day to do things i enjoyed like more CoD2 ONLINE, grocery shopping, cooking Chorizo & eggs, a little laundry, taking a nap, etc...

NOW I AM BACK AT IT.

ROUND 2 of the busy life.



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